Last Day

The healing process continues for my foot and my life. Yesterday, I cleaned, did laundry, worked six hours harvesting my short poems from Facebook for my next anthology and made up some food for myself prepared only for ease of access.
I am learning so much about myself as I work my way through the weeks. Not being able to walk or move freely, is very difficult for a person who thrives on forming goals and going full tilt after those targets.
The sense of being lost and directionless is reinforced now with the loss of mobility. So I got out my journal and went back through the pages to find if there are any items on my list that have been floating on the seas of intention.

Yesterday I began to go through those items and see if I could remove them from the world of the undone. Small steps can make me feel like I am getting somewhere.

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Issues such as financial strength, physical strength, emotional strength keep surfacing. I want the grief that drains all of the charge from my heart to end. However, I can turn it around and congratulate myself on being able to love so deeply. I can mirror back to myself that I know how to bond and form a loving partnership.
Those skills will make for a better future. There will be a time when someone who is whole will come into my life and walk the rest of the way with me.
For now, I am just trying to get from room to room with greater crutching skills every day. I turn over to the universe my prayers for a less limited life in all senses of the word. I ask to be strong, to be passionate, to have a sense of counting in the world and to find like souls to be close to me as I grow and become more steady on my feet.