How Do We Live Approximately?

My foot is healing and it will be good enough to drive with either this week or October, approximately. I have another x-ray coming up in two weeks. Today my goal is to finish the application for my ISBN number and to correct an error in my first poetry anthology. Uploading the new anthology called Facing In: Poetry posted on Face Book 2011 will happen approximately in a week or so.

the beauty of sunlight

When I awaken in the morning at around 9 am, I think over what I can accomplish within my limiting parameters. I begin the day by being still and attempting to gather up my dreams as messages. The fragments are like discarded clothing on the floor.
Last night I retrieved a vision of a baby which had silver/blue metallic skin. I don’t know if the baby was something I was meant to nurture or another version of myself. I can only make a vague guess.
Sitting meditation each day allows me to examine my unseen anxieties. I observe what lies beneath and gently work with it. For one, my debt load is so large for my pay out to finish the marriage that I am restricted as to choices. But I know I need to find work, any work and lots of it. It isn’t where I had planned to be as a 67 year old woman but as my friend Val points out, I am in good company. Many, many people have suffered an economic hit. Mine was a bad choice in a marital partner. Theirs was a bad investment or over-spending. It is all the same, approximately.

creamy tulip is delicious

The sun is shining brilliantly and I will go sit in a sunbath in order to let the vitamin D work its magic on broken, swollen footy, footy.
I am starting to feel stronger in my life. The twenty months of deep grief, anger and frustration are being alleviated by my reading. Deborah King and Sonia Choquette are teaching me to ask for what I want and then let go.
When will I be financially stronger and in a relationship that is secure and healthy? Well the divine field will make that decision. I feel it is approximately within two years. But I could be wrong.

delicate structure

What I do know is patience is a skill that is far more important than I ever knew. Sitting with whatever is happening and learning to set intention is my new accomplishment. And what I am desiring will be at the end of my 400 steps. It will arrive approximately when it is supposed to.

Why don’t people in Kelowna attend the festivals?

dolphin sculpture in kelowna

dolphin sculpture in kelowna

I have heard it is because of the snow, the rain, the wind, the heat, the wind. There is another event, game, movie, festival. The snow hills call, the beaches are attractive, there is a hockey match. The questions continue to come at the end of the Music and Arts festival which had killer musicians performing for people dispersed on the grass as randomly as bits of clover in the summer lawn. Colin James had an audience. But where were the people to hear the Arrogant Worms and Stephen Fearing. I have seen more people lined up to pay their taxes at city hall than I saw at the Music and Arts Festival.

My history in the Okanagan is both deep and long. I ran the Okanagan Film Festival Society, volunteer for Dramafest, was on the board of Theatre Kelowna, the City of Kelowna Arts Foundation and worked hard for the good of the Jazz and Blues Society. The questions were always the same: Where are the people? Where is the support? Are we throwing this party on the wrong night, during the wrong season? Are we unknowingly creating a conflict of choices?

James who was one of the five people to visit in study in ten hours at the Rotary Centre said that we need to poll the people in Kelowna to find out what it is they are doing. Then we need to pitch to that. Perhaps a mobile festival that drives up to their house and has a one hour presentation on their deck?

It is a question that is unresolved. What do you think?