Shut in

Today, I sat and read the ridiculous writings of people pushing back on restrictions. Celine Dion is the head of a satanic cult, there is no virus just what I call “body bag actors”, the state wants to lock us up or out or down. Fire bans and stop lights are all enroachments on human choice.

We don’t like to be thwarted, or given rules particularly new ones. And so I unfriended some of the most challenging to my mental health individuals.

And then I went through my objects collected in my upstairs space once again. Yes, it is my third pass through in an attempt to off load the ridulous.

Only this time I was able to let go of ten year old lipstick and five year old prescription medicines. I poured creams and liquids together from two or three bottles into one. It wasn’t a massively productive day but I did something to move toward my goal of a more peaceful space around me.

I put all of my plants on the deck to harden them off and then winter came bullying in again. Snow fell, the wind was slicing. By the time I paid attention, some of my plants were very, very depressed. I apologized to them as I took each container back into the house. I told them I would take better care of them in the future. I will check them later tonight to see if they have forgiven me for exposing them to harm.

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I went to the shed with the intention of bringing order but the cold air and chaos was not something I had the strong enough heart to deal with. I moved a few objects around, threw out a stack of papers and returned to the house to eat dates and feel irritated.

So alternating feeling irritated with eating dates is apparently my new hobby.

“At least I am getting dressed everyday,” I say to myself.

Celebrate the victories.