Is it possible to change ingrained patterns?

I have been carrying around the magpie thought  during meditation that I wish to start reciting St. Francis’ prayer during my meditation practices. How amusing that my meditative practice continues to be interrupted by my mind planning and spinning off into the future. It is the mental trap that I inevitably fall into. I can only watch and be amused.

heart of tulip

heart of tulip

Throughout my life I have anaesthetized myself by planning, executing and cleaning up after projects. It has lead me to having two degrees by the time I was 22. It has lead me to volunteering for and running various non-profit organizations.

However, the coping mechanism has also left me exhausted, close to death on two occasions and bereft of friendship and support.

Once when I was taking an English novel class a very wise professor stated that the strength of the characters in the enclosed world of the novel was also the great weakness. Every once in a while, we receive information that is an epiphany. We see light where there was once puzzling gray light.

To learn to forgive oneself for surviving even thriving through coping mechanisms is beside the point. It is like fashion. It worked. It even looked stunning on us. But now it is time to leave the shoulder pads of a football player behind and to adapt a new style of living.

Knowing that in time, I will accomplish that which I have set out to do is reassuring. Even more assuring is the thought that by slowing down my mind and winnowing down the frantic list making activity I open up possibilities and time for new energies to enter.

So here is St. Francis’ prayer which I will begin to incorporate in my practice of compassion and mindfulness. Yeah!

Stargazer with sweet smell

Stargazer with sweet smell

The Prayer of St. Francis of Assisi

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;
O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.

For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

http://www.prayerguide.org.uk/stfrancis.htm

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What is the best way to organize the day?

Intentions are like plum blossoms. They in full bloom are beautiful, full of promise and offer a pastel sky. Coming to fruition is a process of surviving wind, cold, heat or whatever the day brings.

I had in my head that I would complete an image for Shop The Valley at Summerhill. http://www.shopthevalley.ca/ After that I would bring order and clean sparkling surfaces to my household environment. Trying to retrieve the image I wanted to use from my transfer from the old computer (with two hard drives) to my new computer with two operating systems and three storage areas sent me into a whirlwind of confusion. Focus, Finish… were the words that my husband and I spoke to one another this morning after meditation.

So now I am metaphorically standing in a skein of tangled threads. Folders, files, jpgs. wrapping their way around the paths through the new system that is not a system. After four hours, I had completed the image and managed to repack one sublayer of one file on one operating system. Yeah!

We needed groceries, Oh and on the way, my camera has died and we stop to look at cameras. Now I am… count them…. four steps back from getting the house cleaned up. Purchasing the camera… which means learning it, making a case for it and trying to rearrange my finances now puts me three more steps away from my intention for the day.

But Wait! We have to put the groceries away. The phone keeps ringing. One call is from Shop the Valley saying that I should,” Stop production of the postcards.” They have found another artist to make them.
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Tomorrow I have to be at the studio by 8 am. I feel frustrated by the way that time has caught me up or I have not caught up with it. I have twelve hours of work in the studio tomorrow so tonight is pretty much it for cleaning. My old self would have pushed on and finished my list for the day.

Instead, I sit down and write my blog, have a jamacian ginger ale and prune down my list to changing the sheets on the bed. If I do anything more than that, I will be delighted by what aspects of my day have been fruitful. My husband told me he loved me. We bought good food. I have a wonderful new camera. Trusting that that which I wish to complete will get done… maybe not on this day. But soon.

There are more than sheets that I have to change. I have to change my mind for a happier life. There are blossoms which are just blossoms. They may never tranform into fruit. But how beautiful are the visions of potential in our lives. Just see.

Winter postcard image

Winter postcard image

Obama: Can one man shoulder the future of the world?

Detail of Red Bannister image

Detail of Red Bannister image

fore ground, mid ground and back ground shift

fore ground, mid ground and back ground shift

It is easy to look to history to see what an inky stain one individual can make upon the pages of events. Hitler, Mussolini, Bin Laden all had the power to alter thousand if not millions of lives. Because I am imbued with my cultural beliefs, it is easy to perceive the pervasive force that unhappy individuals can unleash.

Why then, if we are ready to accept the transformative power of bad choices, can we not believe in the transformative power of enlightened forces? Perhaps it is the script of victimization, or fighting against the odds. We sing, “Against the wind.”

Obama has made some brilliant moves during his campaign and while preparing for the installation as the leader of a stricken nation. He has studied his mentor, ole Honest Abe. The photo op of the president elect with his still living predecessors had the effect of an anointment. In tribal societies it is important for the tribal elders to invest the new leader with power. As he stood shoulder to shoulder with the other figures, the succession seemed natural, inevitable. He looked at ease among other men of power. It was inspiried. The visual message was that he belonged.

Abraham Lincoln was known for selecting those who had most opposed him into his group of close advisors. His motivation was to expand his vision. We all know what it is that we believe to be the “truth” of life. We all know exactly what reality is. It is others who are mistaken, confused and dazed.
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How much more can we learn if we set out to learn. Having to explain what we value and why will act as a fire. It will burn away that which is ridiculous, frivolous or just plain indefensible. But that which is left is now solidified. It shines with a greater brightness because of the fire.

Many individuals, countries and cultures are looking to Obama to take the world out of its downward spiral. Even my Koren friend is saying that she is hoping Obama will succeed so that Korea’s economy will improve. The consequence will effect her future and her family’s financial condition, she believes.

What a weight the man carries. However, he carries it with grace. Is it so hard to believe that there are far reaching positive benefits to a good person making considered decisions? Everyone feels more free and more expansive when there is hope. We all want to help ….when and if we see a way out.

detail of red and orange floating on gray

detail of red and orange floating on gray

original picture of a parkade bannister is altered

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Economic Downturns, Looking Backward and Dream Life

I was intending to recapitulate my journal from last year’s journey. The trip through time will continue. But for now I have much to think about…out loud. Recently, I reconnected with some amazing people from my past on facebook and it has given me energy to think about my future with enthusiasm.

We hear the drone of disappointment and defeat all around us. The media is like a fun house of dark glassed mirrors reflecting back not reality but the reflection of a reflection. We are being lead to the ship’s hold of despair where we are, it seems, supposed to just lie down, close the lid and wait until the economic ship reaches some fantasy shoreline. The promised land of future delights will be discovered. “This is your captain speaking.”

I have some difficulty believing what the media tries to create as reality, more difficulty remaining passive and docile when politicians sing to us and the most difficulty of all believing that the limitations we put upon ourselves are anything more than waking dreams.

eyes explore vibrancy

eyes explore vibrancy

Always, there is a door in the wall. It is not a fact that when one door closes you have to climb out of that tiny, sky-high window from the 1950’s that seems to be in every action flick. The wall has a door. Just move around a bit and let the light change over the surface.

So while I had intended to look over my shoulder at the past year, I have been swept up into gazing back over 25 years ago.
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What my former students have taught me is that the gift of obsession, the passion for exploring the creative and intellectual skills can make a life. It is a life that is surprising, energizing and ingenious.

I have never been a fan of the ploddingly circling around a pole. The repetition of a job, job, job. Day in and day out knowing exactly what each hour is scheduled to bring is soul killing.

My hope is that during this economic downturn we all “grab the wire” and get ourselves hooked up to a greater source of energy. No Not red bull.

Lying down and enslaving ourselves to the dream life will not bring resolution to either the economic downturn nor will it create the synergy that is needed to revitalize our society.

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Oct 29th, 2007 paper work for art shipment

We have almost completed all of the paper work to ship the art. Today I will finalize with UPS the shipping details and pay. We have purchased backpacks… with the intention of going minimalist. His roots back has an orange beaver and mine has a pink beaver. One pack for each of us. What a challenge. We usually take two over stuffed suitcases, various coats, pillows and a cooler to go away for the weekend.

We purchased ear plugs and eye masks for the plane trip and I stated my intention of wearing both when we are traveling in Italian traffic. We have viewed some on line video clips of Italian traffic. Check that out if you want to feel safer on the road…where ever you are. The problem is that most Canadians do not have the 360 degree peripheral vision and lighting quick reflexes of Italians. It is said an Italian can ride a scooter, talk on a cell phone, drink a coffee and carry a baby under one arm without dropping, spilling, stuttering or hesitating to charge in.

I have all new work framed up for the two upcoming shows in the next three weeks. Cameron played for the Kamloops Symphony this weekend as the Kelowna rhythm section of Neville Bowman on keyboards, Scott Gamble on drums and Cameron on bass filled out the tribute to Nat King Cole. Vancouver singer Dee Daniels was spectacular.

Cameron has one more gig at the Vernon Jazz Club coming up. He is hoping to receive his journeyman papers any day which will be a big boost in several ways.

We are considering where we might want to go while we are away on our 42 day adventure. Oh the ideas are grandiose. But seasoned travelers tell us to pretty much find a place and just explore. The sensory overload can be daunting, we are told.


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Looking back Oct 19, 2007: Europe

Cameron and I are very intriqued by the process of shipping art. We have learned how to enjoy red tape, failed connections and contradictory messages. He has constructed two beautiful wooden cases for my art. We rarely get an opportunity to read the guide books we have purchased because he is so busy with musical performances and I have been getting work ready for four different shows. We have friends who lifted off two weeks ago and from their emails it seems as if it is truly possible to arrive in Europe and travel around. We are still surprising ourselves that we are undertaking this journey.

Cameron claims he will be excited on the plane. Our plans are becoming more and more grandiose. However, we do have hotels pegged down for London, Paris and Florence. The rest will be loosey goosey.

We swear we are only taking two backpacks. I have already started to lay aside things in a “trip basket”: money belts, neck wallet, ear plugs, photo copies of our pass ports. We still need to buy health insurance for the trip, notify VISA of our upcoming alien behavior oh… and get the blasted crates cleared through customs, EPS and UPS.

Cameron will be playing for the Kamloops Symphony next weekend, I have two major art shows coming up so the preparation will be in dribs and drabs.

I have finished painting the house and cleaning up the garden beds. Now we have to put all of our fantasy building project materials undercover for the winter. Also, I have to purchase some Christmas gifts for the kids and grandkids to be shipped early because we will be in Paris on Christmas!!!!


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Blog by Andrea Sperling: What is a Giclee?

Sunday, January 4, 2009

What Are Giclee and Digital Prints?

Digital images are created from photographs taken with a digital camera or from scanned images. Fine art prints that are made from digital files generally are created from high resolution files, not small jpg files that most of us use with our point and shoot cameras.

With todays high-end inkjet printers, ultra chrome pigmented inks, and professional grade papers that are fade resistant, photographic images can be created that can last a lifetime. One of the advantages of high-end digital printing is that the images can be optimized for color accuracy better than other methods of print reproduction.

Giclee (pronounced zheeclay) prints are fine art digital prints that use 8 or 12 color inkjet printers. Giclee is a French word meaning spray or a spurt of liquid. Giclee printing can produce beautiful detailed photographic prints at various sizes and on different surfaces like watercolor paper, canvas or other fine art papers. The prints longevity is based on the media (the paper) and inks being used generally 90-100 years. Remember, the stability of the print will vary due to environmental factors, too. Proper matting, framing, and lighting conditions in the room will all affect the longevity of the image.

With the advent of high-end digital printing, once an image is digitally archived, artists can print on demand without any change in the quality of the final print. Also, with digital printing, images can be reproduced onto various media (canvas, watercolor paper, etc) and at most sizes. Today, galleries often display and sell high-end digital prints. They sell at prices similar to other contemporary fine art prints.

Andrea Sperling is the founder of the online fine art photo gallery for the home called Will It Look Good Over The Sofa. To see her site, visit: http://WillItLookGoodOverTheSofa.com

A giclee becomes a one of a kind when the artist uses the high-end digital print out as a stepping off point for further exploration. The artist has control after the print is made as to which avenue he or she wishes to travel. Images may be short runs with a certificate of authentication stating how many images in total are to be created. Images may be printed as a one of which makes it an original. Finally, some artists are doing what I have adopted as my practice for the past three years and go on from the print to alter, highlight, paint out, paint in, apply various medium/texture.

How do you know if a work is an original or not? Knowing the artist is the best insurance. If it is a multi-run, make sure you get a signed certificate which you should keep on the back of the work of art.

How do you know if the artist is not going to reproduce the exact image that you have purchased which is painted in water colors, acrylics or oil? You don’t. We have all seen the wolf portrait painters in malls all over North America. They slavishly reproduce the same image much as a painter in a china factory paints the plates.

An artist takes pride in what he or she does. Betraying trust with a customer is a betrayal of the artist as well as the one who walks away with the work. We both lose.

Get to know the practice of the artist from whom you are buying.

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What makes us like Stars on Ice?

Picture of Star Gazer Lily with filters

Picture of Star Gazer Lily with filters

Chipping the ice away from the back step, I thought to myself that in order to take steps you have to first see the steps. We in Kelowna’s North end are all clearing the way for ourselves to engage in a normal work a day world.

We have not had the snow plow down in our neck of the woods after each snow fall. Frequently the ice underlying the snow layers is treacherous. Greasy brown snow up to the hub caps presents the surface experience.

It is all in the technique. Some drive achingly slowly trying to adjust to the rush of adrenaline that comes when their tires find the grooves in the road that were created on a warmer day when we ventured out through deep snow. Evening freezing left trenches which lie beneath the surface. Others seems to believe that all obstacles should be met with bravado. Swinging out around the corners, they tear into the gas pedal to fly over obstacles. There are fragments of fenders by some of the stop signs in Knox Mountain village.

Ten more centimeters is predicated to fall in the next two days. I am going to be out of the shoveling game for a while because I managed to fracture the knuckle on one of my fingers from the weight of the snow.

Why are we like Stars on Ice? Because we need technique and we need awareness of conditions. The shoveling and dragging our legs through snow drifts has done much to condition the body. I put on my winter pants yesterday and the crotch was down between my knees. Now if I just pull my underwear up and tuck my shirt into it, I will be rad or cool or whatever it is the diaper wearing teenaged cohort calls it.
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Also, there is an element of performance anxiety as we get into our vehicles. Will we be smoothly sailing off across the ice, or….

In life and when you are a star on ice, it is good to remember that one must first see the steps before one can take them. I have cleared the back steps. Now I can take out the garbage and recycling. Keeping the house peaceful is now easier.

Tuesday, we will take my art up to Gallery Vertigo in Vernon to hang on the members wall and in March I will put work up in the Mission library. http://www.galleryvertigo.com

January will be a wonderful time of teaching classes and showing others how much fun exploring the world of creativity is. http://web.ubc.ca/okanagan/continuingstudies/welcome.html

It is not nearly as challenging as skating on ice.

What is the Best way to show your art?

 art in the entry lobby of Caldwell banker lobby

art in the entry lobby of Caldwell banker lobby

New Year’s is a time to restructure, reexamine and reassess those actions which have been taken to move toward a goal. The first step is to have the goal clearly in mind. The difficulty comes when I enter the labyrinth and become dazed and confused. As a Myers-Briggs personality type of extrovert intuitive, I am reactive and focussed frequently on trying to soothe, help and educate others.

The journey is to learn how to make myself a calmer more fulfilled person. My goal is to be the type of person who just plain raises the Vibe. So part of my maketing plan is to sit meditation every day. Part of my marketing plan is to get my art out into public spaces to be discovered by people who are setting up house.
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The best way to show your art is to fully understand what you are doing as an artist and as an agent. As we are headed into the year of the Ox, it is good to know what the path is and pay attention to the yoke. It is all a big yoke anyway….says the smiling Buddha.